What with Twitter and Tumblr, this place is getting a little neglected. Truth is, I don’t really have much to write about. School’s started, and FYP is flooding my schedule.
Even in the first week I can already feel the stress, but it’s kind of welcoming. This is my last lap and I will do my very very very very best for this. I must… I’ve waited two years for this. Go me!
Mostly I’m running
I can’t even tell why I’m running
It’s all the same thing
All the shadows behind me
I keep running
They’re all behind me
Just behind me
Running to catch me
I can’t stop running
I don’t know why I’m running
But I can’t stop running
They will catch me
Who are they and why are they after me
I don’t know but they’re coming for me
They’re going to catch me
They’re going to catch me
I mustn’t stop running
I must keep running
From the shadows behind me
From the dark behind me
From the things I cannot see
But they are definitely behind me
And they are definitely after me
I must keep running.
I went for today’s bombing not expecting much, because I had a heavy mind due to something that had been bothering me for the longest time.
But today’s session is beyond words. We did the usual orchard road, which had the right amount of people. That in itself is pretty great.. but then we tried mount faber. Holy Christ. It’s beyond awesome. It’s downright… DOPE. There, this is my first ever time using this word to describe everything at all. But it is FREAKING DOPE.
The epic Henderson Wave. The awesome 1.3km uphill. The DOPE near 30 degrees slope downhill. The smell of burnt rubber from my tyres. The adrenaline pumping through your veins. The epic wind against your face. The night sky right above and around you. All the citylights in the distance.
Beyond words. Beyond what words can describe. I’m rarely impressed. But this time, I’m blown off my feet. Today’s bombing is DOPE.
I need to catch my breath now. Noel, Nick, Marian and Geraldine… you should have came. Jo and Dick is away in NS so it’s too bad. But you four, should have TOTALLY CAME ALONG.
I only said all the things I said simply because you’re my best friend. Just like “Made of Honour”, the guy cherishes the girl very much, and vice versa.
So do I. That’s why I want to be honest. Even if it sucks to hear. I didn’t call you asking for an argument. I called to ask you what happened. But you turned it into an argument the moment you hang up on me, screaming. I don’t think I’m high and mighty, I just think you don’t take to criticisms very well and you are evidently shrinking responsibility, which is why I said all the things I have. Isn’t that what best friends should do? Be honest and help each other, even if that means being an absolute ass?
But I’m sure you wouldn’t see it from that way because you’re still angry, and I don’t think I can keep my cool any longer so I’m just going to go to bed.
And plus, why are you the one getting all pissed off when it belongs to me? Why are you the one doing all the sarcastic remarks? I didn’t use any strong words and kept my cool because I didn’t want this to strain our friendship.
Still, I hope you’ll see this and understand that I mean no harm and that no, I don’t really need you to get me a new one. I just said that so that you know that it is important to me. Oh, and I am indeed going to lend my brother, because if there is ever one other person I can be sure who is more responsible with books than me, it would be him. The other would be you, along with Aaron.
But you’re right – it does feel like a breakup.
When asked why the lift upgrading programmes in opposition-held Hougang and Potong Pasir were announced by People’s Action Party (PAP) advisers and not its incumbent Members of Parliament, National Development Minister Mah Bow Tan said this has always been the practice, as they are the ones liaising with the HDB.
“I don’t expect the MP who’s not … a PAP MP to explain why LUP is like that, why we need co-payment, what the co-payment is all about. The adviser is always the one doing it, and it’s no different this time round,” he said.
By Esther Ng (TODAY)
I find that statement surprising and shocking, but I should have known better.
“I don’t expect the MP who’s not … a PAP MP…” – Is a MP not a MP? It seems to also suggest that the MP is effectively useless when it comes to LUP, and that it is the adviser who “is always the one doing it”. This adviser, of course, is from PAP.
This brings about another important and interesting question – if it was a PAP adviser who is in charge of LUP, and this adviser places such emphasis on “PAP MP” and “not a PAP MP”, does this mean that this adviser is responsible for all the old elderly who had to climb up stairs in order to go home?
I think this very short article offers an insight into just how our system works. Not at all surprising though; just another confirmation that our system is skewed.
To learn to detach yourself from emotions is not to deprive yourself of it. But rather, to completely drench yourself with it. To surrender your heart your soul and your mind to it, to let you crumble you utterly. Then slowly, bit by bit, rebuild yourself. Now you know how it feels, how it feels to be completely heartbroken, so when the next time comes you know how to pick yourself up. You can tell yourself that you’ve already survived this before… you will survive it again. Because the truth is, you will. It may not seem like it at this moment, but eventually it shall pass, you’ll wipe your tears dry and you’ll wake up the next day smelling like a rose again.
- JUSTYOU
“To learn to detach yourself from emotions is not to deprive yourself of it. But rather, to completely drench yourself with it.”
I agree with this statement, because this is how I’ve always dealt with roller-coaster emotions. To completely drench myself in grief so that I can put a bookmark at the lowest and tell myself, “This is already the lowest, I cannot possibly go lower. So I can only go up now.”
Uhh, the latests of my entries does not refer to anyone from VC. And while yes I appear melancholic, I’m really just in the middle of sorting out my thoughts.
Thanks for all the concern, really. Well appreciated.
He who is capable of such magnificent tasks, is also capable of such despicable actions. It’s no secret of course, I just think we constantly need reminders for ourselves that it’s always better to make friends than enemies.
Alas. We will have to work harder towards the goal, however far the goal may be.